My Mother's Daughter

Now, that's ME! Well, this is not only about me, but its about my mom and me. 

My mom is here with me for her vacation. Needless to say, I am ecstatic and extremely happy about all the pampering, good food and rest. Doing the dishes, washing clothes - everything is taken care of. Wow!

And then the conflict begins. There is a conflict about almost everything, but its mostly about S. In these 13 months, Sid and I have an understanding in most issues. And here is mom, who wants to change certain things. There is always something - how i should convince him to drink whole milk ( convince a 13 month old ?!), or how i should make his food or what i should be feeding him. 

And then of course, conflicts from my end like why things in the kitchen aren't where they should be etc.  

What I am trying to say is - I seem to have the patience to deal with a child who is fussy or needs entertaining than listen to my mom who has some concern. It also seems easier to handle a child than answer questions from my mom and heed to some advice? Suddenly being a mom seems more important than being a daughter. In my saner moments, i am able to rationalize, even feel sorry that i am not being the daughter that i ought to be.  

Yet, inspite of all these arguments and conflicts, i know, ours is a relationship that i can count on always and that my mom and i will continue to be the good friends that we always were. 

Numero Uno!

1Sid baby turned ONE today. A year has flown by. Feels like just yesterday he was out of me into this beautiful world. Its been a fun year, with a lot of " first times"- the first smile, first laugh, the first rollover, the first trick, and ofcourse, the first step :). I have loved seeing Sid grow up, although, heart of hearts, i still want him to be mama's boy and never grow up! 

I have had a lot of people asking me if he was following the standard developmental milestones. My answer to these people is usually a very polite one, but in my mind, i know it just doesnt matter. What your baby does whenever brings you joy. Whether he crawls at 8 months old or at 10 months does not matter. The joy of seeing him do that is immense. I have realized that babies are extremely special and that they make your life feel complete.

Happy birthday my little chocolate eyed boy! Your life will be filled with all the happiness and joy one can find. 

This Day Last Year!

I am excited, emotional, nostalgic - April 6th 2009, was the day my water sac broke and we rushed to the hospital. I remember the night to be extremely painful, with my contractions being extremely erratic. In my mind, amidst all the pain, was only one thing - that my precious baby should be safe and that he should come out into this beautiful world without any hassles. I cant believe its already a year since all that happened. Time flies so fast that sometimes its scary. I was at Target today and i saw this Indian aunty who is here to help her daughter through her delivery. There was an instant sweep of nostalgia. I remembered my mom being here - she panicking the minute i told her that my water sac had broken and praying incessantly/fervently that all should be fine. Like in the Indian movies, there was a downpour that day and my Mr. claims that he even got off the car for little stunt show :)

I am sure there are three people in this world who are thinking about the same things today- Ugen, my mom and ME! 

Nila.. vaanam... kaatru..

This is one of the best songs that i have heard and liked (actually loved) in the recent times. Its from the movie "pokkisham" by Cheran. The movie by itself was very nice - every person whose relationship blossomed through love letters nowadays emails will be able to empathize! 

The lyrics of the song are here. I want to keep this forever...

நிலா  நீ  வானம்  காற்று  மழை
என்  கவிதை  மூச்சு  இசை
துளி  தேனா மலரா திசை  ஒளி பகல்

நிலா  நீ  வானம்  காற்று  மழை
என்  கவிதை  மூச்சு  இசை
துளி  தேனா மலரா திசை  ஒளி பகல்

தேவதை  அன்னம்  பட்டாம்பூச்சி
கொஞ்சும்  தமிழ்  குழந்தை
சினுங்கள்  சிரிப்பு  முத்தம்
மௌனம்  கனவு  ஏக்கம்
மேகம்  மின்னல்  ஓவியம்
செல்லம்  ப்ரியம்  இம்சை

இதில்  யாவுமே  நீதான்  எனினும்
உயிர்  என்றே  உனை  சொல்வேனே
நான்  உன்னிடம்  உயிர்  நீ  என்னிடம்
நாம்  என்பதே  இனிமேல்  மெய்  சுகம்

நிலா  நீ  வானம்  காற்று  மழை
என்  கவிதை  மூச்சு  இசை
துளி  தேனா மலரா திசை  ஒளி பகல்

(பெண்)
அன்புள்ள  மன்னா அன்புள்ள  கணவா
அன்புள்ள  கள்வனே  அன்புள்ள  கண்ணாளனே
அன்புள்ள ஒளியே  அன்புள்ள  தமிழே
அன்புள்ள  செய்யுளே  அன்புள்ள  இலக்கணமே
அன்புள்ள  திருக்குறளே  அன்புள்ள  நற்றினையே
அன்புள்ள  படவா  அன்புள்ள  திருடா
அன்புள்ள  ரசிகா அன்புள்ள  கிருக்கா

அன்புள்ள  திமிரே அன்புள்ள  தவறே
அன்புள்ள  உயிரே  அன்புள்ள  அன்பே
இதில்  யாவுமே  இங்கு  நீதான்  என்றால்
என்னதான் சொல்ல சொல்  நீயே
பேரன்பிலே ஒன்று  நாம்  சேர்ந்திட
வீண் வார்த்தைகள்  இனி  ஏன்  தேடிட

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